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On Mar. 18, 2002 at 2:49 p.m., I wanted to sing:

Everclear: I will buy you a new life

Here is the money that I owe you
So you can pay the bills
I will give you more
when I get paid again

I hate those people who love to tell you
Money is the root of all that kills
They have never been poor
They have never had the joy
of a welfare Christmas

I know we will never look back
You say you wake up crying
Yes and you don't know why
You get up and you go lay down
inside my baby's room

I guess i'm doing ok
I moved in with the strangest guy
Can you believe
he actually thinks
that I am really alive

I will buy you a garden where your flowers can bloom
I will buy you a new car,
perfect shiny and new
I will buy you that big house
way up in the west hills
I will buy you a new life

Yes I will

I know all about that other guy
The handsome man with athletic thighs
I know about all the times before
With that obsessive little rich boy

They might think you're happy
Yeah maybe for a minute or two
They can't make you laugh
No they can't make you feel
the way that I do

I will buy you a garden where your flowers can bloom
I will buy you a new car,
perfect shiny and new
I will buy you that big house
way up in the west hills
I will buy you a new life

Yes I will

I know we can never look back

Will you please let me stay the night
No one will ever know



This song is a mix of stuff atm, wishes for and about different people and things about the past.


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On Mar. 14, 2002 at 11:27 p.m., I wanted to sing:

P.O.D: Youth of the Nation

Last day of the rest of my life
I wish I would've known
Cause I would've kiss my mama goodbye

I didn't tell her that I loved her and how much I care
Or thank my pops for all the talks
And all the wisdom he shared

Unaware, I just did what I always do
Everyday, the same routine
Before I skate off to school

But who knew that this day wasn't like the rest
Instead of taking a test
I took two to the chest

Call me blind, but I didn't see it coming
Everybody was running
But I couldn't hear nothing

Except gun blasts, it happened so fast
I didn't really know this kid
Even though I sit by him in class

Maybe this kid was reaching out for love
Or maybe for a moment
He forgot who he was
Or maybe this kid just wanted to be hugged
Whatever it was
I know it's because

We are, we are, the youth of the nation
We are, we are, the youth of the nation
We are, we are, the youth of the nation
We are, we are, the youth of the nation

Little Suzy, she was only twelve
She was given the world
With every chance to excel

Hang with the boys and hear the stories they tell
She might act kind of proud
But no respect for herself

She finds love in all the wrong places
The same situations
Just different faces

Changed up her pace since her daddy left her
Too bad he never told her
She deserved much better

Johnny boy always played the fool
He broke all the rules
So you would think he was cool

He was never really one of the guys
No matter how hard he tried
Often thought of suicide

It's kind of hard when you ain't got no friends
He put his life to an end
They might remember him then

You cross the line and there's no turning back
Told the world how he felt
With the sound of a gat

We are, we are, the youth of the nation
We are, we are, the youth of the nation
We are, we are, the youth of the nation
We are, we are, the youth of the nation

Who's to blame for the lives that tragedies claim No matter what you say It don't take away the pain That I feel inside, I'm tired of all the lies
Don't nobody know why
It's the blind leading the blind

I guess that's the way the story goes
Will it ever make sense
Somebody's got to know

There's got to be more to life than this
There's got to be more to everything
I thought exists

We are, we are, the youth of the nation

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The louder this song is played, the better it sounds. It goes deeper each time I turn up the volume, especially with good bass....


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On Mar. 14, 2002 at 9:13 p.m., I wanted to sing:

Enya: Marble Halls

I dreamt I dwelt in marble halls
with vassels and serfs at my side,
and of all who assembled within those walls
that I was the hope and the pride.
I had riches all too great to count
and a high ancestral name.
But I also dreamt which pleased me most
that you loved me still the same,
that you loved me
you loved me still the same,
that you loved me
you loved me still the same.

I dreamt that suitors sought my hand,
that knights upon bended knee
and with vows no maidens heart could withstand,
they plesged their faith to me.
And I dreamt that one of that noble host
came forth my hand to claim.
But I also dreamt which charmed me most
that you loved me still the same
that you loved me
you loved me still the same,
that you loved me
you loved me still the same.


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On Mar. 14, 2002 at 9:08 p.m., I wanted to sing:

Caroline's Spine: Happy Without You

i remember thinking things would never change
the way it was, and how it was to remain
i haven't cried in a while
but i haven't forgotten the pain in my heart
and after so long you finally called

i remember thinking things would never change
the way it was, then how it was to be alone
i should have know bettern then
that i couldn't handle you on my own
cause i broke your heart
and even thought i'm glad you finally called

i'm never ever gonna go back
i'm happy here without you
i'm never ever gonna go back
i'm happy here without you

still i remember thinking things would never change
the way it was ,and how it was to remain
i haven't cried in a while
but i haven't forgotten your pain
cause i broke your heart
and even though i'm glad we finally talked

i'm never ever gonna go back
i'm happy here without you
i'm never ever gonna go back
i'm happy here without you

i remember thinking things would never change...


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On Mar. 11, 2002 at 5:41 p.m., I wanted to sing:

Sarah McLachlan: Dear God

Dear God,
Hope you got the letter and
I pray you can make it better down here.
I don't mean a big reduction in the price of beer
But all the people that you made in your image,
See them starving on their feet
'Cause they don't get enough to eat
From God
I can't believe in you.

Dear God,
Sorry to disturb you, but
I feel that I should be heard loud and clear.
We all need a big reduction in the amount of tears
And all the people that you made in your image,
See them fighting in the street
'Cause they can't make opinions meet

About God,
I can't believe in you.

Did you make disease, and the diamond blue?
Did you make mankind after we made you?
And the devil too?!

Dear God,
Don't know if you noticed, but...
Your name is on a lot of quotes in this book,
Us crazy humans wrote it, you should take a look,
And all the people that you made in your image,
Still believing that junk is true
Well I know it ain't, and so do you

Dear God,
I can't believe in...
I don't believe in...

I won't believe in heaven and hell.
No saints, no sinners, no devil as well.
No pearly gates, no thorny crown.
You're always letting us humans down.
The wars you bring, the babes you drown.
Those lost at sea and never found,
And it's the same the whole world 'round.
The hurt I see helps to compound
That Father, Son and Holy Ghost
Is just somebody's unholy hoax
And if you're up there you'd perceive
That my heart's here upon my sleeve.
If there's one thing I don't believe in.....

It's you.....
Dear God.

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This song sounds much, much better from the speakers in John's car than in my tiny little computer speakers. It's still awesome, though.


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On Mar. 11, 2002 at 12:02 a.m., I wanted to sing:

Coldplay: Yellow

Look at the stars; look how they shine for you
And everything you do
Yeah, they were all yellow

I came along; I wrote a song for you
And all the things you do
And it was called yellow

So then I took my turn
Oh what a thing to have done
And it was all yellow

Your skin, oh yeah your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
D'you know?
You know I love you so
You know I love you so

I swam across; I jumped across for you
Oh what a thing to do
'Cos you were all yellow

I drew a line; I drew a line for you
Oh what a thing to do
And it was all yellow

And your skin, oh yeah your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
D'you know?
For you I bleed myself dry
For you I bleed myself dry

It's true
Look how they shine for you
Look how they shine for you
Look how they shine for�
Look how they shine for you
Look how they shine for you
Look how they shine

Look at the stars
Look how they shine for you
And all the things that you do

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